DAILY DOSE: "I'm Getting Old and I Need Something To Rely On."
What a cool garden. I've definitely got to check this out some night...
There's not much time to talk today, I've got a letter brief due by the time I leave here tomorrow. I can't believe how quickly time flies. It seems like only yesterday that I started working here, and now it all comes to a close as quickly, and as uncerimoniously as it began. It was a great job, with great people, and an even better dress code, and I will miss working here. I guess that sums up my law school experience better than whatever long-winded piece I'll come up with next weekend, too...
Elise wrote an amazing little journey of self-discovery on her blog today. I'd love to link to it, but I wouldn't dare open her up to that kind of scrutiny. However, she's got my always-tumultous mind in a little bit of a silent uproar, which might just lead to something particularly introspective within the next week or so. I'm in a sort of odd place right now, where chapters are certainly closing, and others are beginning. And actually, I'm starting to feel, for the first time, like I know what my life's going to be like. It's odd, really. I don't have a job, and I don't have a place, although I could quite certainly have both within a week's time (Though, like I told Lara and Aunt Paulette last night, if there's one thing I've learned about life, it's that right as it seems it's all about to start turning up "Adam," it doesn't). That being said, my hopes are certainly not up, it's just more of an intriguing dream, than anything.
I guess my life is full of intriguing dreams these days, perhaps moreso than usual. For once, they're all kind of grounded in reality, if that makes any sense. I once told Carolyn that "knowing where you're going feels a lot better than hating where you've been," and though I loved how that sound, I never took much stock in it, because really, who knows where they're going? I certainly don't. But I'm starting to get an inkling for it. I think I have a pretty good idea of who the major players in this thing called "my life," are going to turn out to be, at least for the immediate future, and I like what I see. So I guess, in those terms, I do know where I'm going, I'm just not quite sure what it's going to look like when I get there.
It's an exciting time, to say the least. Although, it's an often gut-wrenchingly familiar time, as well. Do I really think everything's about to start coming up "Adam?" No. But that doesn't mean I can't believe it.
And believing is the first step towards "doing," you know.
...and here I said you'd have to wait for me to get introspective. Consider this the iceberg's tip.
In the meantime, listen to YOUR Song of the Day, "Somewhere Only We Know," by Keane.
Also- 24 was it's usual good-shit-self last night. I'm excited for the two-hour season-ender next week. If Tony dies, I'm going to be so pissed. But when he invariably does, please remind me to comment on his character arc, and the wonderful way the writer's played that particular hand.
Oh- I've not watched the preview for next week, so don't comment on them, please. My gut's telling me that this one's gotta end with either Tony or Jack buying it. My gut also tells me Keifer's going down, while saving Tony, in order to close his character arc through redemption. Maybe even Audrey will forgive him before he fades away. Call me melodramatic, but I'm thinking that's the way I would've written it.
-apk
There's not much time to talk today, I've got a letter brief due by the time I leave here tomorrow. I can't believe how quickly time flies. It seems like only yesterday that I started working here, and now it all comes to a close as quickly, and as uncerimoniously as it began. It was a great job, with great people, and an even better dress code, and I will miss working here. I guess that sums up my law school experience better than whatever long-winded piece I'll come up with next weekend, too...
Elise wrote an amazing little journey of self-discovery on her blog today. I'd love to link to it, but I wouldn't dare open her up to that kind of scrutiny. However, she's got my always-tumultous mind in a little bit of a silent uproar, which might just lead to something particularly introspective within the next week or so. I'm in a sort of odd place right now, where chapters are certainly closing, and others are beginning. And actually, I'm starting to feel, for the first time, like I know what my life's going to be like. It's odd, really. I don't have a job, and I don't have a place, although I could quite certainly have both within a week's time (Though, like I told Lara and Aunt Paulette last night, if there's one thing I've learned about life, it's that right as it seems it's all about to start turning up "Adam," it doesn't). That being said, my hopes are certainly not up, it's just more of an intriguing dream, than anything.
I guess my life is full of intriguing dreams these days, perhaps moreso than usual. For once, they're all kind of grounded in reality, if that makes any sense. I once told Carolyn that "knowing where you're going feels a lot better than hating where you've been," and though I loved how that sound, I never took much stock in it, because really, who knows where they're going? I certainly don't. But I'm starting to get an inkling for it. I think I have a pretty good idea of who the major players in this thing called "my life," are going to turn out to be, at least for the immediate future, and I like what I see. So I guess, in those terms, I do know where I'm going, I'm just not quite sure what it's going to look like when I get there.
It's an exciting time, to say the least. Although, it's an often gut-wrenchingly familiar time, as well. Do I really think everything's about to start coming up "Adam?" No. But that doesn't mean I can't believe it.
And believing is the first step towards "doing," you know.
...and here I said you'd have to wait for me to get introspective. Consider this the iceberg's tip.
In the meantime, listen to YOUR Song of the Day, "Somewhere Only We Know," by Keane.
Also- 24 was it's usual good-shit-self last night. I'm excited for the two-hour season-ender next week. If Tony dies, I'm going to be so pissed. But when he invariably does, please remind me to comment on his character arc, and the wonderful way the writer's played that particular hand.
Oh- I've not watched the preview for next week, so don't comment on them, please. My gut's telling me that this one's gotta end with either Tony or Jack buying it. My gut also tells me Keifer's going down, while saving Tony, in order to close his character arc through redemption. Maybe even Audrey will forgive him before he fades away. Call me melodramatic, but I'm thinking that's the way I would've written it.
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